I wish I knew what you were thinking

I wish I knew what you were thinking
I wish I could read your mind
I wish that we were together now
I wish I could call you mine

I wish I could make you understand
I wish I could make you see
I wish that I could be with you now
I wish that you were here with me

I wish I could tell you how I feel
I wish I could tell you I love you
I wish you would look me back in the eyes
I wish you would say "I love you, too"

I wish I didnt have to only dream of you
I wish I could be with you all the time
I wish I could stay in your arms forever
I wish I could say all the things on my mind

I wish i could say it....

I've written this a thousand times
I never get it right,
I want to explain just how I've felt
Since that horrible night,
You'll probably never read this
I guess you just don't care,
But here on this page is my heart
So lost and full of despair.

My best friend, my soul mate
The shoulder that i could cry on
You i thought i could never hate,
You taught me that I'm loved
That I'd never be alone
Adventures we did go on
Exploring things unknown;
People thought we were mad
But with you i didn't care,
I never will forget the fun we had
The memories that we shared;
When i told you i loved you
That you were a sister at heart,
Every word i spoke was true;
The way we parted it was unfair
How could you let a guy break us,
i gave you my everything i swear
I gave you my happiness..

So maybe i didn't explain it right
Maybe it just cant be put into words,
But without you life...well it isn't so bright
And everyday i do hurt;
I have other friends, people to talk to
I laugh and smile with them
But no one can compare to you;
You hurt me worse then anyone could
And I'm not sure I'll recover
My trust is gone for good...

Photos and memories are everywhere
They just wont seem to fade
And now I'm starting to think,
will i ever be the same...

Thank you...seimaa...

Can I Call You Angel?

The snow fell, leaving a halo of white upon your head,
and that's when I said,
"Can I call you Angel?"

You looked at me with surprise,
but I could see it in your eyes,
and I knew.

As you sang silent night,
your beautiful voice put me at ease,
and I asked please,
"Can I call you Angel?"

A smile came to your face with serenity and grace,
but you said not a word.
In my darkest hours you held my hand,
never leaving my side, and I said, while I cried,
"Can I call you Angel? "

You then began to wipe the tears away
and erase all the gray in my life.
You led me down a path of gold,
telling me of the creator above,
and again I asked with a greater love,
"Can I call you Angel?"

You never answered my plea,
so I fell to my knee in prayer.
As I opened my eyes, I could see you before me;
Your wings spread and a golden halo upon your head
and one last time I said,
"Avani, can I call you Angel?"

Erin Sheets

So Much To Me .....Thanks seimaa

I was in love with as one of my best pals have dedicated it to me....what if it was written by some great author...but what matters and amazes me is the fact that i was worth all the time that she spent searching it and then being thoughtful of dedicating it to me..........i would take this oppurtunity to extend my heartily affection....

Thank you Seimaa.......

So Much To Me

Another day is passing
And still there is no word
On how your life is going
And who is in your world

I pray you will consider
These words I write to you
I liked you in my life
Yet maybe now it's through

I don't want to see
our relationship come to an end
And I don't want to find
our lives standing still

We are moving towards the end
And we really ought to wait
Because God planted something special
Deep within our hearts

I know your life is hectic
You are busy all day through
My life is busy also
But I still think of you

I want to send my love
And remind you of these things
Just so you will know
You mean so much to me

Today is a gift...that is the reason it is called as PRESENT..

If I died tomorrow,
How would you remember me?

Would you remember all the happy memories we shared?
Would you tell your children about me?
Would you even remember me?

If I died tomorrow,
What would you say to me today?

Would you tell me you love me?
Would you tell me that I'll always have a place in your heart?
Would you tell me that I left many imprints in your life?
Or would you just tell me good-bye and good-luck with God?

If I died tomorrow,
Would you hold me close to you today,
Not letting go and telling me you love me dearly?

Would you take me out today and spend as much time with me as possible?
Or would you just call for a quick 5 minute chat with you hanging-up,
Leaving me to a dial tone?

We never know what can or will happen tomorrow,
So today we all must cherish and do what we can.
Whether it's telling our mom and dad we appreciate them for caring and raising us
Or cuddling with our boyfriends/girlfriends and enjoying the comfort of one another.

Whatever it is, do what you can today.
Remember yesterday and don't worry about tomorrow.

Thanks Mom...

When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you hang my first painting on the refrigerator, and I immediately wanted to paint another one.

When you thought I wasn't looking saw you feed a stray cat, and I learned that it was good to be kind to animals.

When you thought I wasn't looking, saw you make my favorite cake for me and I learned that the little things can be the special things in life.

When you thought I wasn't looking I heard you say a prayer, and I knew there is a God I could always talk to and I learned to trust in God.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you make a meal and take it to a friend who was sick, and I learned that we all have to help take care of each other.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you give of your time and money to help people who had nothing and I learned that those who have something should give to those who don't.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you take care of our house and everyone in it and I learned we have to take care of what we are given.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw how you handled your responsibilities, even when you didn't feel good and I learned that I would have to be responsible when I grow up.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw tears come from your eyes and I learned that sometimes things hurt, but it's all right to cry.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw that you cared and I wanted to be everything that I could be.

When you thought I wasn't looking, learned most of life's lessons that I need to know to be a good and productive person when I grow up.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I looked at you and wanted to say, "Thanks for all the things I saw when you thought I wasn't looking."....and unknowingly you gave me the wisdom and helped be a better human being

Must to read....

The beauty of life I miss when my thoughts race in an unsteady haste

Is worrying about problems the solution or is it only that I am making waste?

Taking what I have for granted instead of appreciating the good in life that awaits

Do I not take notice of the kindness others show or do I dwell on past experiences that arise which bring about the hates

Life is too short not to have fun and experience the joy of giving and sharing one's self as I awake to a brand new day

To overcome the small unimportant problems or worries that mount because of the lack of not understanding one's inner self and not applying one's faith by turning and running away

I look around and see what's before me and come to notice I have a choice either to live life to the fullest or watch it go by

Life is what you make of it and how you perceive yourself by making positive choices and decisions that you will remember and know as your time has passed that you will not have to ask yourself why?

Struggles and challenges of making a living and caring for one's self and loved ones is what most of us live for

It's the determination to make our lives more meaningful and happy as difficult as this is to achieve when we fall short of our expectations and cry out in silence of wanting more

I am a person who accepts the good with bad and glad I am healthy and alive to be able to view life as the person who I am without regret or sorrow

I live for today to know my horizon can be reached for it is my tomorrow

I wish...

I want to cry
I want to scream
I want to tell you mostly
I hate that I'm so afraid of everything
I hate that you’re the one thing I want the most but can't have
I hate that you let me go before I got even got to say goodbye
I wish that you would come back to me
I wish I were strong enough to say no to you
I wish I could believe my own lies I use to cover up the pain you left
I need to move on says my head
I need to hold on says my heart
I need to decide says my mind
I envy the way this hasn’t hurt you at all
I envy the fact you don’t understand what this feels like at all
I want to hurt you
I want to be with you
I want this nightmare to be over
I wish I could make things they were before you
I wish I could change time
I need you out of my thoughts
I need you out of my heart
I need to start doing things for me
I hate that you used me
I hate that I gave you something I can never have back
I'm tired of hoping aimlessly for you
I'm tired of wanting something I can't have
I'm tired of hurting me for things that aren’t my fault
I'm sorry I was good enough
I'm sorry I defended you when everyone else was right
I'm sorry I couldn’t make you happy
Funny though how you never once said sorry for hurting me,
for breaking me......

Will be waiting..............l

I understand the things you say,
Even though it makes me sad,
We sat and had a talk today,
I gave you everything I had.

Even if you don’t come back,
I’ll wait this year for you,
Even if this love you lack,
I’ll do what I want to do,

I’m happy,
even if you’ve gone away,
I continue to keep this love for you,
In hope that you’ll come back to me,
on a distant far found day,

They think I’m stupid, they laugh at what I do,
They criticize and ridicule this love I have for you,
It dosen’t matter anymore, nothing matters anymore,
The only thing that matters anymore, is the love and what its for,

Just know that I will love you,
And maybe that is sad to hear,
But I will do what I want to do,
Even if that means a year.

Maybe you don’t love me,
And you think this will just be more easy,
But I’ll be waiting, in my heart forever,
Even if that means my love for someone else,
Will end up being never.

Baby this is for you ..........

gauri........you always wonder why i keep queit when you expect me to say ...so here i have just tried portraying that i appreciate your presence and its not words that matter....

love you baby........

i searched everywhere
from the little shop in the corner of the street
to the big mall in the middle of the city
searching for what was in my mind

a special thing that would be the best choice
for me, a little something that would say what i wanted to say
countless hours of search invain
i couldnt find it, maybe no one else understood it the same way
as i did maybe they all felt it to be too hard
and too good to be true

i try to write it down
but words that once gushed down
now merely trickled down to nothing
how i wish i could pen down
what i wanted to say

i close my eyes and think about
the stuff that i thought about buying
comparing them to what you once said you wanted
then i realized there is nothing that can compare
to your sweet smile,
to the love and caring nature
that you so easily emoted at all scenarios

the loving gestures
during the highs and lows
and the gentle words
with the power to calm a beast

i struggle to find the perfect thing
yet the ones i saw
couldnt match up with
all the things that make you “you”

after much struggle,
here it is
from me to you
" Love You"

This one is for my dad.........love you....

there are so many questions left unanswered
time has finally caught up and
slowed me down, leaving me breathless
intent to teach me a thing or two;

disturbed thoughts push my dreams away,
waiting to be fulfilled,
my dreams linger around
weighing me down every day;

one by one, i lose sight of
those once around me and
trudge on on my own,
through rain and through sun;

as i pretend to live life,
silence embraces me
painting my heart black
while my eyes continue to
scan the road that seemingly
has no end;

I wish you were here.........

miss u you very very much.............with love

Simply Me.....

From several days was thinking of just penning this down....today just got a chance to do so....

some days i want to live,some days i wish it’s over
some days i long to see,some days i wait to die;
some days i think i am fine ,some days i believe i have a problem
some days i am strong,some days i am weak;
some days i am closer to truth some days it seems far far away
some days i think i understand some days i am just lost;
some days i just wish everything would disappear
some days i just hope you could be near;
some days i feel to give some days i am filled with energy
some days i miss you so much some days i dont wana think about you.......it hurts
some days i have a feeling one day everything will be alright and that day is closer than ever so on and so forth


This certainly potrays the kind of mess i am into now.....however i think that the best ways of getting out of it is believe this funny yet so real thought everything happens for something best..................:)

Good One!!

"I Am A Habit"

Disclaimer: Was written by John Di Lemme but just thought of sharing this lovely thing with all you people.


H-A-B-I-T...When 95% of people hear this word, a negative thought pops up in their minds. Typically, most people think of a habit being negative. The secret to your future lies in your daily habits so ask yourself right now, "Are my habits today going to help me achieve my WHY in life?" This is a life-empowering question if you truly ask it and listen for the answer.

I received the following excerpt from a very dear friend of mine and felt that it is definitely the best explanation of a habit that I have ever heard:

I am your constant companion.
I am your greatest helper or your heaviest burden.
I will push you onward or drag you down to failure.
I am completely at your command.
Half the things you do, you might just as well turn over to me,
and I will be able to do them quickly and correctly.
I am easily managed; you must merely be firm with me.
Show me exactly how you want something done, and after a few lessons I will do it automatically.

I am the servant of all great men.
And, alas, of all failures as well.
Those who are great, I have made great.
Those who are failures, I have made failures.
I am not a machine, though I work with all the precision of a machine.
Plus, the intelligence of a man.
You may run me for profit, or run me for ruin; it makes no difference to me.
Take me, train me, be firm with me and I will put the world at your feet.
Be easy with me, and I will destroy you.
Who am I?

I am a HABIT!

One of my daily habits that is the foundation of my life is spending 45-60 minutes each and every morning feeding my body physically by exercising and feeding my mental spirit by reading or listening to a motivational message. This habit warms me up for the day ahead. Everyone washes their physical body and feeds their body every morning, but 95% of people will find an excuse about why they can not find the "TIME" to invest in a habit of feeding their MINDS!

This parallels the statistic that 95% of people are dead or dead broke by the age 65. I consider this particular daily habit of mine to be the driving force behind my ability to consistently maintain my intense focus on the journey of success and living a dream life.

Is it easy all the time? Of course not, but when it becomes a habit – you will do it! If you commit today to begin each morning warming yourself up for the day ahead by feeding your mental spirit, your entire life will change in a positive fashion very quickly. It is like driving a race car with the emergency brake on and you try to go ahead, but you can’t move. You stay in the same location with your wheels spinning, burning up, making a lot of noise, but not going anywhere!

All it takes is to release the brake and you will fly towards toward your WHY in life!! You need to review what your habits are and ask yourself…“Would I recommend MY habits to someone I truly love and care about?” Your entire future lies in your daily habits—positive or negative. You have the most powerful force right now in your hands, the ability to decide what your habits will begin to be.

John Di Lemme
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John Di Lemme was a 24-year-old stutterer working in his family art gallery that dreamed of becoming a world-renowned motivational speaker. Over a seven-year period of hardships, challenges and obstacles, John remained focused on his dream and ultimately built a massive marketing team of over 25,000 representatives in 10 countries and earned the financial freedom that he had always dreamed of. Visit his website